thoughts and sorts

haven blogged for the past 2 months.. well mainly I'm not really a blogger, this is just an avenue for me to deposit some of my feelings, thoughts and emotions when I feel like it.

guess i still rather talk to someone real than to just type out stuffs.. think sometimes computers and instant chats make us less 'human'.. and our communication skills with one another would be drastically lacking, till a point whereby the person whom you want to talk to is just steps away, but you have to instant msg that person in order to find out some information you want.. (this happened to my colleague.. one new guy came in today, and he only "talked" to her through instant msg.. asking her where is the pantry and printers) =_=lll

anyway... while waiting for my other colleagues to be ready so that we could go for a time of dinner and bowling, I just thought I could perhaps pen down some of my thoughts and whats going through me..

its a new beginning, the old has gone, the new has come

Well, don't ask me whether I like the 'new' that is coming.. cos i'm really not sure. But for one, I know, my new boss would, (i hope), be abit similar to my ex-boss such that he will take care of the people under him.

I'm moving again. back to where I came from when I first joined this company... but not exactly back to the same dept... will be working with new people, some 'younger' than me in this company, mostly older than me and some other veterans....

I wonder how will it be like... but for one thing I know, it is not going to be as direct as where I am now. maybe it is due to the number of people there (alot!), maybe it is due to long-ago historical hurts / unhappiness that wasnt resolved in between them... but that place always gave me a feeling that I must walk on my toes all the time. cant *exactly* pin point out what, but i guess, Mabel might not be able to be as 'real' as she is right now. Its just that - whatever you do, you just have to watch your back.

I hope this change would make me a better me.. I know I would definitely have new things to learn, (I am looking forward to that!), and I hope that I will be able to handle difficult situations, difficult people, most of all, to be able to grow my skills and knowledge of the aircraft, to be able to grow as a person.

I'm going to miss this current place badly. A place where I had so much fun, laughter, stress, tears even... I remember that day I broke down and cried so badly in my colleague's cubicle the moment I got the news that my grandma passed away..

• the nice things that my ex-boss used to, (and still is buying) for us to eat..
• the boys who nvr fail to make me laugh
• the little whispers & LOUD laughters we always give out from our cubicles
• the rat-invasion saga, where a rat bit a part of the loaf of bread I left on my table
• the night duties, midnight duties, where we walk the hangars, and come back to office and fall aslp

though these times are past, but they will always be wonderful memories that I'll keep.

thanks to all who made a difference in me, in the short but fruitful 2 years 8 months that I have been situated in IMS.. I will miss all of you, and I wish you well.