after so many weeks of family outings on saturdays, finally i thought to myself, i will have some time for myself today... I didnt have to teach, since it is deepavali today..
have a church party this evening, and was invited to go... so i made my decision to go... the couple who invited me were dad and mum's friends as well, but mum had some not-so-pleasant situations with them before so her impression of them isnt very good.. they invited me to ask my mum along too but I guess I shouldnt even ask her.
told her that i'd be going out, she walked past me juz now and grumbled... saying that i'm always very "hong sim" (hokkien), and not focused at all...
really don't understand. focus wat?! focus on staying at home and be a good little girl, forever not going out to meet friends, and how on earth can / would I be able to get a bf?! o_o lll
and these few weeks keep talking about getting married. duh.
yday nite she suddenly say want to go my uncle's place to settle the details for zurich, and i readily agreed. why cant i have some time and space of my own today then?
sometimes juz feel that the time I purposely take out to spend with her has gone so unappreciated and taken for granted. umpteen times i have cancelled outings with my friends because of her, many times i had to leave early to go home also because she was upset / angry / etc.
help. i need some space. leave me alone!!!
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