tired

enough is enough. just feel like saying this and being able to mean it..

it is like a battlefield - a never ending battle i fight, mentally & emotionally. its very tiring. i had enough.

God I wish I could have a home to call my own. where's Mr. Right?... yah, wrong motive for asking that, sorry.. just wish to have my own home, a place that i can find solace.

its not her, though sometimes i wish she could juz "slap" him and wake him up (which i know it will never happen)...

just find it so hard to live with him as we grew older. its always about his agenda. its always about him and him alone. why cant he spare a thought for others? totally non-family oriented. so inward looking, so self centered.

when grandma's around, and was diagnosed with colon cancer, he always said that he will visit her, sometimes asked me to pass her $... i never could convince the idea to him that it is not the money that matter anymore, is the time that is spent with her...

for all that you do for the house - thank you. but for the bulk that you didnt do at home daily, i just simply hate to pick up the leftover pieces that you neglect anymore. but if i don't do it, she will have do it. i just hate to see that you take her for granted. food gets served on the table, you eat and just leave it.

cups for plain water used, not one, not two, but several... left there on the table.. i used to be kind and clear all those too. but not anymore.

toilet papers left unrefilled, toilets uncleaned, dishes not washed... ur own clothes not washed, even if you do, u leave them in the washing machine till someone finds it and does it for you... enough is enough. i do those no more.

sorry you had to carry this burden.. i wish i could help, but i'm feel so drained. why should i help someone who is able to do it on his own? just becos of plain laziness, or maybe i should say, being so spoilt, that you no longer do these basic day-to-day stuffs? i am not asking for much. i just wish you could play your part.

always "nagging" at us to keep the table clear, but what do you do to your own room? it looks like world war II just ended there. and the living room? its full of your stuff. stop ordering me around.

she gave the excuse that you smoke becos of work stress. but isn't it the same???!!!! now that you're not in that so-called "stressful" working environment... you're still smoking!!! okay so wats the excuse now? becos you lost your job and it's not easy doing what you're doing now?... whatever. I just find that you need to be taught some survival skills, stress management skills, and something to deflate your sky high ego till you can start getting along with people and be more automatic.

don't wait to be told what needs to be done.

life's isnt just about you alone. stop acting like everyone in the world owes you something.